Dear dearies,




Things are not okay nowadays.
I dont see Mr/Ms Rainbows.
I dont see Mr/Ms Sunshine althought i still see the sun.
All i see is Mr/Ms Rainy day.


To whom it may concern,
I am sorry if you think that i am making a drastic decision.
You are asking me why after five years ?
The answer is more to your side than mine.
I love you a lot !
We have seen each other cry.
We have seen each other laugh.
We have seen each other frustration.
You are the only one who understand me in and out.
You were once my backbone.
Ive seen you suffered enough.
You can change things
but its you who chose not.
Therefore, i took my initiative to change things.
Only god knows how disappointed i am to hear those answer.
Like what i told you,
"We have known each other for 5 years yet you nod to what he said."
I asked you to choose and you said none.
Here you go, im leaving not because i felt kecik hati
but because i love you a lot !
On the other side, he is someone whom i gonna live till my last breath.
and you,you are my another part.
I dont think this decision of mine will change.
I am not hating you .
I dont despise you .
Remember that whatever it is i still love you.


To my PK-ians,
Thank you so much for giving me a break.
Thanks for understanding me.
I know if i were to make that decision on that day,
I would messed things up.
I would break many hearts.
Now, i am having fear to turn up for trainings,meetings.
Ive made my decision and i bet that will make you people hate me more.
But two words,
"Im sorry."
I guess this is the right path for me and you guys.


HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BORNDAY SISQA HERMAN !
Have a WONDERFUL and MEANINGFUL BORNDAY !
It have been ages since we met !
I fraking miss you !
we shall meet during IGNITE !
*Muakz !*


Teddy bear, Give me the strength to be strong.
Cherioz !

trying to figure out this life.❤8:35 PM