im with you.

Friday, February 29, 2008

28022008.

Im tired of hearing dis particular phrase,

"Wats lyfe without any problems?"

Problem after problem.

I become helpless each day

hoping that miracle will happen

and everything could be settle.

it has been 3-4 days since i talk to him.

yes!

i get the chance to actually sees him.

but we dont talk..

wats da use?

aniway im proud of hym..

he was the top student for malay languange in Sec _, Normal Acad stream.

at least he proves that he can study and is actually

good for something.

i wanted to congratulate him but..

i have no guts..

or should i say that im afraid to talk to him.

ive never thought that one day we will be like this.

Its as if hys being imprison and we are forbid from seeing hym..

i can sense that hys ashame to actually face us.

But boy, that was not a tattooed mistake!

please change?

im begging you,please..

i just want you to be back..

ill do aniting..

even crying infront of you..

i will definitely will!

RANDOM QUESTION

When will be the perfect age,years,date,day

that i will stop having heart aches?

People will stop disppointment me?

People will stop to merajok-ing(what kind of language)?

Whats da use of sacrificing when people dont see it?

Why in the world im helping a person who loves to hurt me?

Why do teachers love giving student test?

Why this eyes just cant stop looking at things which i dont need to sees?

Why this ears alwaes hear things which i dont wish to hear?

Why im always at the losing point?

To summarize all dis,

"Why in the world do i exist?"

trying to figure out this life.❤12:02 AM

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

To whoever it may concern,

It has been at least a month i knew you and almost everyday i will be chatting wif you. The first time i knew you i regard u as an online friend. You were there for my ferst problem which is dropping my Amaths which ive did. The next problem i had was with that "crush" of mine. That was the most sucking love story in my life. You even were dere to actually listen to my stroies wen we were just new in knowing each other. im proud to have you! muahahaha.. The next thing i noe was i have this "like" feelings for you.I dont feel awkard wen im chatting wif you..i dont find you like a new friend at all. I find you really..really nice.. the way u tell me about yourself.. as in wen the ferst tyme u tell me dat u actually nvr tried smoking,drinking and the best part wen u told me u nvr had a girlfriend. At ferst it was hard for me to believe..but after that i started to trust you. And da tink i hate bout u is that u like to kacau me..hahaha.. mayb bcause u alwaes kacau me makes me like wanna go online and chat wif u everyday.. amazing kan? i noe.. Im actually very scared to tell you this cause im afraid dat ull hurt me and i dont want to go thru heartbreaks.It will take me some time to get over it. and i actually tried to avoid dat feeling and tried to regard u as a bro or a bestfriend..but that feeling will only last for a minute..&&&&& the next ting i noe is dat im falling for you cause u make me melts in many way.(:

;with love,
supervague

trying to figure out this life.❤1:35 AM

26022008.

Why must people change?

Dont they know that if they change for the worse it will

affect people around them?

Have you actually do some thinking?

No!

You hurt everyone hearts.

You break them into pieces.

You disappoint them.

You made them Cry.

I love you so much that i dont

actually interfere too much in your personal life.

I know that i will waste my energy advicing you

but when you really did sthing that really

breaks my heart..

i cant just be keeping quiet..

i know i have to do sthing and i thought that that was the ryte way.

She cried infront of me and u just became helpless.

Ive ever made her mad and irritated or sholud i be specific

PISSED OFF..

but did she actually cried?

she mayb crying inside the heart but she nvr show it..

but today she did.

I noe she loves hym more than me..

and she was very disappointed..

He was too disappointed and he evenn was so restless..

everything dat he did was not ryte..

he was actually day-dreaming..

and he too loves hym more than me..

same goes to me..

i love hym..

we were together since small..

we grow up together VERY RAPAT..

and now wat i noe is that we are drifting apart..

Yarh i noe he pentingkan kawan

but lyke duuhhhh..

use some of your brain..

u should not get influence easily..

why cant your friend do it but not you..

thay also slack together with the SUCKERS and yourself

but dey dun actuallydo "that"..

now you're not wif us anymore..

i cant bear doing this..

i want hym back..

i dun care how much he hates me..

i only want hym to be around me..

BRING HIM BACK,PLEASE?

people must be reading my blog and will be a definitely ask me.

&&&&im not telling you guys aniting so dun bother asking.

and for those who actually noes da story..

thanx a lot for the advice and help.

trying to figure out this life.❤12:11 AM

Sunday, February 24, 2008

23022008.

Its WEEKEND!

oh yeah~!

per lagi have fun arh?

i noe ppl are studying for their common test

and im lyke having fun..

wadevar!

kayy lets talk bout my common test..

on thursday we had our English paper..

Not so bad..

not so bad?

i manage to do luhh..

friday we had social studies paper..

dat paper was okayy..

im confident of passing..

or should i be rather specific..

its either a just pass or a just FAIL!

just now i went to BPP

together with superBELO&superPOWER..

gerek luhh seyy!
mane tak ktr share the same interest..

actually we plan nak g blaja but it turns out to be watching a show..

OMG~!

i melts wen STYLE FROM BEYOND perform..

melt till cannot melt! (ff pinjam line ehk?)

sexy&hot move!

we get to take pix with them tauu!!

but since im using the computer..

ill update the picture dat ff sent me..

i dun lyke dis pix! ff stands beside dat cine mat lap!

aniwhere the two guys beside me also not bad esp da

one without the hood..

CUTE gilerr.!

den we headed to BUGIS street...

omg!

ramai org luhh seyy!

Pergi just to get cardigan..

omg~!

my bro should thank me for lyke wasting my energy..

okayy! we were lyke trying to avoid sumone but den kan end up

terserempak ngan die..

OMG!

hw to go for war!

conferm die ferst..!

Thanx ehk superBELO!

ill update more pix wen i get my laptop

NOTE FOR THE IDIOTS:

thanx for that bloody snif snif! HACHOO! eh salah! GLUE party..

i hate you faggot!

trying to figure out this life.❤12:22 AM

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

19 FEBRUARY 2008

"Happy Birthday to me!"

Yeah!

Im SWEET SIXTEEN..

but still not LEGAL!

whuahuahua...

I only manage to watch NC16 shows..

Thank You SuperSexy for

the card & flower.

Thanks Merhan for

the flower

Thanks FOUR-H for the birthday song. esp GARY & GANG.

The most touching part was when actually you guys follow me & sang dat bornday song.

Thanks Raz for

the diary.

Thanx SuperVillian for

the _____& Card

Thanx SuperBelo for

the card.

Thanx SuperVain for

the Card and Cake.

Thanx SuperPower for

the small cute cushion and Card.

Thank you for the wishes.

-Saifuldin

-Audi

-Fadhlun

-Han

-Ding Chow

-Aisyah

-Razzlyn

-Ellya

-Amirah 4I

-Ezzati

-Rabbetah

-Nora

-Fathin

-Syafiqah

-Afiqah

-Ezra

-Gary

-Wei loong

-Kent

-Johann

-Dexter

-Terence

-Fahmy

-Shakiir

-Andy

-Zarruq

-Aisha

-Eija

-Datuk Danial

-Danial Zulfiqar

-Boipendek(i forget his name)

-Mrs ooi

**if i left out any names im so sorry!**

The SURPRISE PARTY!

I was shocked and surprised wen i read dis. i swear!

&&&& this is wat she wrote! nak nagis u noe!

SUPERVAGUE WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE FOR THE WISHES,GIFTS,MONEYS&&HAPPINESS THAT BROUGHT ME JOY!

THANK YOU SO MUCH! *HUGS&KISSES*

trying to figure out this life.❤10:29 PM

Saturday, February 16, 2008

16022008.
SUPERs DAY OUT!

i had a lot of fun with my super girlfriend..

They're the besterest human on earth..

We went to vivo to catch a movie..

We wanted to watch PS I LOVE YOU..

but we were late..

Janji pukol brape datang pukol brape..

HAIYO!

superstar btol korang ehk?

so we end up watching 27 DRESSES..

omg!

That guy was HOT!

His eyes was MAGIC!

Sexy ryte the eyes?
*melting*

After the show we met up with supergerek & supervain..

We went to the Open- Space...

Gerek luhh seyyy!!

The scenery was perfectly nice..

den got water somemore..

mane tak fun?!

okayy!!

as u noe i love taking picture..

SYIOK SENDIRI!

hahaha..

we snap a few pix..

nice!

i just love my PANTAT & TETEK friends@ SUPERS!

Lastly i just love this picture..

"hail Princess!"

trying to figure out this life.❤11:42 PM

Thursday, February 14, 2008

14 February 2008

Valentines's Day!

A day for couples?

ermm.

no..no...

I celebrated it with my girlfriends and boyfriends.

It was actually a great start for the day.

You could see most of them laughing and smiling..

Some came to school with bags of sweets and presents..

I received a few valntines' gift from my SUPERS!

Besterest SuperVain: A nice and cute PURPLE ROSE &&& im in love with them.. Thanks for the card.. i love the words.. i noe i always bully u tapi kan i sayang u lyke mad okay!

Besterest SuperGerek@Sisqa bean: I love that cute mini top chocolate. Tak samapai hati nak makan tauu.. and i havent even touch them.. cause that gift was really meaningful.. &&& i really love you! You mean something to me tauu.. or should i say u mean a lot to me..!

Besterest SuperSexy: You did something different for me.. and u make e the special one.. hahaha..i love that long note of yours.. i love you more than a frend..sister.gurlfrend..boyfriend..

Besterest Risyah: Tahnx for that chocolate..! ilyt!

Besterest Nissa: Thanks for that small token..! ilyt!

Besterest SuperVillian: I love that small note.. i noe u did it last mintue but that really shows how actually u love and appreciate us,ur frends.. i love you so much small kid!

hahaha..

Besterest SuperMan:Thanx for the song! it was really touching!Hahahaha..

People thanx again for the gifts and wishes! I really love you people and for those who still owe me dont worry you still have till 19th FEBRUARY 2008!

eyy! kental! Happy valentines' day! i was hoping to be the last person to wish u!

&&& i've managed!

trying to figure out this life.❤11:39 PM

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

s.o.s!

Its hard for me to express my thought or feelings.

The word trust inside my dictionary will be invalid soon.

Do you know how disappointed i am?

Do you know how my heart aches?

you dont know ryte?

cause ur dumb!

Im proud to call myself a SBS.

SBS?

go figure out yourself.

The month of JERK!

trying to figure out this life.❤11:37 PM

Sunday, February 3, 2008

04022008.

Its o1o2am and im not sleping yet.

yea?

im not sleeping..

Im having a social studies test tomorrow and im studying now.

errmm..

Today is an another day.

i donno what exactly will happen.

hopefully i dun put my emotion ferst.

Today, as usual i woke up late..

in the afternoon den i wake up..

wah!!

gurl behave that way..

hahaha.

what to do..(i just love saying dis)

In the evening, my auty and ubcle cam visit my grandma.

omg~!

katrina was so cute!

she has grown up seyy..

she talks and walks..

and she just love singing and telling stories..

At night i went for visiting..

u wanna noe where?

u guess..?

faster guess...!

i went to IMH..

hahaha..

okayy its not sthing funny..

i was a lil bit scared.

you could see how "sick" people lyke them..

i didnt went there cause i was scared..

den i we went for makan!

yeah!

today we tried sthing different..

we had INDIAN cuisine..

hahaha..

indian?

hahaha..

okayy perrr..

aniwae i read supersexy blog and all i could say that im touch.

friendship are nt like diamonds..

Diamonds are just precious

but friendship are priceless..

and these different kind of frends

thought u to live in many different world.

thanks to the SUPERS who thought me alot in life.

who help me out,support me, lend everything they had(shoulder,money esp.hahah)

i love u guys to the bits.

&&&&&im still counting on our friendship.

ps: supervague's wishlist is up! i wil hand it over to supersexy.

trying to figure out this life.❤11:43 PM

03012008.

Today is somewhat a relaxing day.

Im so lazy to revise and do my homework.

oh gawd~!

im taking my Os and i have dat tinking..

"Blow wind blow..please blow off that mindset of mine!"

thank you!

ermmm..i did a lil bit of study..

a lil bit jekk..

den nyanyi2.

mak! rumah nie cam aku punye..

mane tak?

takd org..

mummy and papa and my auntie went for visiting..

i've just hang up the phone..

i was toking to my supersexy..

everything was perfectly fine..

i must learn to let it go and over with..

To aisha s. ,

thanks eyy babe! ily.

u helped me a lot seyy..

sayang kamu!

hahaha..

aniwae thanx for the compliment..

*blush*

hahaha

aniwae im addicted to my kental,weird,tua,handsome,tiong man partner of mine..

hahaha..

Thanx to him who always make me laugh and realise on certain tings..

hahaha..

thanx eyy kental!

hahaha..

see?

u can see hw many "hahaha" are there..

cause im blogging while chatting wif him.

&&&& hes da reason y i have a late night..

ps: im writing my wish list. i will update u guys soon..

trying to figure out this life.❤2:45 AM