im with you.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Topic or today.

1) the tough fight.

2) werk

3) in a fairytale land?

im sure everyone wants an update ryte??

dont deny luhh...

the makcik and pakcik out dere mesti sibok jekk..

haha..

okayy..

ryte now am trying to avoid her..

ermm..

excuse me..??

am not avoiding her but i just hate looking at her..

But ryte..

i tink im cooling down.

The ting is dat if were are back to normal..

it will not change MY FAMILY decision..

which is not to allow her to stay at my house or my nenek's house..

My WHOLE FAMILY are not accepting her back..

My cousin and her are back to normal.

Fine! i cant say much..

their love story not mine!

after that we started msg.

me:sorry cousin

cousin:apasal?lgpun aku pikir ale betol ckp mak kau nasuha tk slh yg slh mak die..n die dah sumpah dgn aku yg that tyme die stand 4 mak nye ryte yg mase pat pit n die sdh kehilangan seorang kwn...

me:i dont ask much.i just want her to apologise.aku pun tauu dat i have to apologise to her.

cousin:she wants 2 sms mami itu hari tp die tkt mami mrh kat die..n die pun tau kau ngah mrh pat die..n she donno wat to do..so aku paham so aku ckp ngan die tok to her mom slowly abt this..

***end conversation***

wat do u tink i shld do?

My cousin noes me that well..

he kills my weakness wall...

Maybe today is my last day of werk..

i love that job alort luhh seyyy..

but the pay that worth it...

This week pon i slack alort..

i only get 14 customer..

gosh!

10 more to go luhh seyyy..

i must get 5 today and tomorrow..

work was fun case saya ader teman berboal..

DATUK DANIAL!!

hahaha..

he jahat u noe..

he called me CIK TINA..

thanx to my pelanggan..

hahaha..

thanx DATUK DANIAL for jadi my teman ..

haha..

btw u r older than me so it suits you...

hahaha..

Fairytale land..

awwwww!!!

okay...

i dun find it sweet..

cause i dun get wat i want..

hahaha..

BOTH are not my type!

so yarh..

hehehe..

trying to figure out this life.❤12:39 PM

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

i dun feel good eversince dat dae..

u noe i've been crying everyday..

did anyone care..??

i dun find peace here..

i admit i'm a HOT-TEMPERED!

bt i can be nice too..

if u fcuker loves testing on my patient..

Go ahead!!

i dun mind..

so many tings had happened..

incident after incident happened..

i planned nak alek kampung..

mayb there is where i can find what i want..

i even dun wish to look at my family..

esp him..

To whoever,

"you never know hw sad i can be. kau lagi penting can people who u call friends. i still remember how rapat we can be. u never want to listen to what i say. fine fcuker u can alwaes have wat u alwaes wanted. never call me your sister or kakak cause dat is wat u alwaes wanted. && i swear that i will try my best not to ever call your name or abang. and if i ever do that i'll curse myself. you are the only one who puts all the blame on me fully.aku sala aku balik during the pit! aku yang uat semua problem nie!aku sial! aku pukimak!aku sundal! i loves creating problem!&&& i loves uat org gdh! dats is wat u tink of me! uat malu kau jekk to have me as your kakak!! so yarh."

To whoever,

"i am partly wrong.! but yor mother is mostly wrong! kau blang mak kau jaga mulut die! aku rase family kau jadi gitu sebab mak kau! you and your family desrve it!aku tak perna disrespect org! yes! aku kurang ajar ngan mak aku tapi after all aku ngan mak aku are anak beranak! mak kau takd hak nak panggil mak aku tu semu! agaknye ape kau cakap sal diri kau betul! kau mmg pompuan sundal! perangai menyial!i dun care if u turn to a bitch!im happy for my cousin!im more than happy that u guys break up! dgn perangai kau yang hypocrite! i rather he be back with jannah..she noes how to ambil hati aku not like kau!im not cheap!not wanting hypocrite people..just be yourself and see if people accept you."

if i had my way aku dah sepak muke kau pompuan!

i dun regard u as my frend anymore!

kau ngan mak kau same jugak!

krg ajar-krg ajar aku..aku blaja sendiri..

krg ajar-krg ajar kau.kau blaja dari mak kau..

mak aku TAK PERNA BOHONG NGAN AKU,FAMILY AKU OR OTHER PEOPLE..!!

so yarhh...

am waiting for the tyme dat i have a one to one tok wif u..

aku masih mara sal i never get to let my anger out at you,BITCH!

and btw kau lang mak kau.. as if mak kau tak perna bohong gitu !

Mak kau lagi teruk!

i wish u read dis arhhhh!!

i can be worst den ur mother!!!

people dun xpect dis from me..

but for people lyke ur mother and u whom mulut mcm PANTAT AYAM!!

i rather be NASTY!

trying to figure out this life.❤12:30 AM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

salut tout le monde!

Topic for today

1)shopaholic

2)Niz~

3)Horoscope

OMG! eversince i got my pay.. i'm lyke so spendrift..

bt no worries.. i do give my parents money..

i dun earn much but..

i've told myself dat if i werk no matter hw much my pay is i must still give my parents some of my pay..

deres a malay saying, "kalau sikit-sikit,lama-lama jadi bukit."

so i started giving mum a small amount of money bt insyallah i give my mom more income if my pay goes up..hehe...

Finally,i got my own SHAWL& DRESS..!!

i bought t-shirts too..

My next pay i'm gonna buy shoes& jeans..

My Next two pay gonna buy my school bag and pencil case...

wahh tina!! angan2 lebih!! entah kekal ke tak..

haiz..

gaji tak seberapa...

at least i bersyukur.. (:

okayyy!!! i'm over with that stupid feelings for him..

i hate her seyyy!!!

and i hate him tooo!!!

stupid!!

i've never thought that she was the gurl..

it never strikes my mind.

haiz..

i do remember that my cuz do told me that she has just break up with his guy.

Freako!!!

bt i noe dat i must understand that love can't be force..

but we must fight for wat we tink belong to us..

cheyy!! tina! since when do you have this kind of attitude..!

"busok nye org!"-quote by abg lud

don't worry m not dat type of person..

worst come to worst i'll hate that person..

you hate them?

ur jealous of them or wat?

ehk! my problem arhhh... u sebok2 y..??!!

congrats! i hate you and i mean it!

and dis feelig wil never turn into LOVE..

i gonna guranteee you..!

i love reading horoscope..

haha..

especially on peoples character..

fun tauu!!

mine pisces..!!

yours..??

and my opposite sign is VIRGO!

haha.

you're virgo??

"oh! hi! nice to meet you!"-tina.

virgo are welcome.

hehe..

&& wat it says bout me is so true!

i'm a dreamer and i'm soo soo proud of it!

haha..

and i can't get along with Aquarius!

its soo soo true!

haha..

aniwae have u ever heard of a person by the name of FaizalAdam?

nice ryte?

i can't sense that he's hot!

i love his name luhh seyy...

we story2 bout him wen i get tonoe him more kayy..?

Promise.?

**binne nuite**

trying to figure out this life.❤1:43 AM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

salut tout le monde!

Topic for today

1)work

2)friendships

3)O-S-B

I've got my pay luhh seyy!!

Tomorrow thought of not cuming to werk..

bt den boss dah sound..

i wanna enjoy!!

Tomorrow kak yana has a plan..

we plan to go town.

al-maklum luhh nak christmas!!

LAMPU2 dah bukak..

Okayy just now was graeat at werk..

I stop my werk at 8+..

lek2..

den dis stupid F***ing creature sms me luhh.

Frust seyy!!!

Lucky my superhero ader..

name is not to be stated..

he help me out..

he tok to dat creature..

dat creature tak serik2..

he do advice me not to lawan alek wat my guy seyy..

ahahah..

guy..??

foolish luhh seyy..

dat was just an act..

dat i was lyke dah bingit..

i said sthing like..

"ehk dun msg me anymore!! u noe dat i'm wif my guy and u kept msgin me..

&& nasuha added dis

...my kakak dah tau tauu she threaten that if u keep on sms-ing.. den blablabla.."

den die tak reply luhh sey..

amiiinnnn....

MY babes are loved!!

i can't imagine my life without u guys..

when i'm down, eiher one of u will be dere for me..

dry my tears,hear my shouts..

i love you babes..!

To whoever,

"I'm sorry.i'm not dere when u need me to cheer u up.i tried to do sthing wich will make u happy bt i failed..mayb i dun understand u after a few yrs of friendship.and it is a shame as i called u MY babes bt i was not dere for u.."-Tina

Love is not always sweet.

They are the most bitter stuff on earth.

The greatest disappointment is when ur love is one-sided.

For a moment i sat and think through.

"why must i ended up crying when i was the one who decided to be in love?"

Yes,i cry!

any problem?

people say that crying for a guy is a foolish thing that a girl can do.

bt try to be in our position.

you don't know how painful it is.

we are the one who went through all this stupid ting

u can say dat u go through the same situation

but sumtimes it is soo damn freaking different.

i waited for him to go online for almost a week but

i end up being disappointed.

"Tina,where are all you brainss?!! you knew that he likes sumone bt u r stil hoping for him?!!"-Tina

Babe,u say i'm so gentlewomen.

Bt why must i fight for him when he fight for other girl.

I shld have listen to wat dis guy have to say.

He once asked me that..

He:Kalau kau ader pilihan,would u choose org yang lawa tapi takd akhlak or wld u choose org yg hodoh tapi ada akhlak?

Me:Hmph..ntah.tak tauu..depends arhh.. asl?

He:____ punye pandai.die ambek bdk yg lawa tapi takd akhlak.die kate nak didik.

*we laugh.*

i love day-dreaming!

and dats me!

Pisces!

I want dat old feeling of mine.

i used to hate hym.

i never like hym seyy.

becos of a few reasons which i dun tink i must tell.

it was only since he started chatting with me dat i find hym a nice guy.

He's a change guy now.

Trust me!

he's different now!

i have to say this.

"Ameerulnizam! i like you!"-confession made by her.

**bonne nuite!**

trying to figure out this life.❤1:45 AM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

salut tout le monde!

Topic for today

1)work

2)life story

3)O-S-B

Work is kinda of fun and relaxing and i'm geting bored of it..

Penat tau everyday turon naek bus and NOT ONE bus BUT TWO..

amd crowded lagiii..

I hate crowded place unless there's someone together with me..

Okayy.. now my company has a new policy..

and ive been told by someone dat da company has not been paying da rental..

Hmph.. Company name or name of ppl are not to be stated or asked..

It is my 5th days werking day..

overall everything okaayy luhh..

we onli need to find 25 customer per..

sounds lke easy huh?

bt do u noe we are struggling...

*help2*

especialy the guys seyy..

takp guys.. i will definitey help you..

tapi if i myself tak lehk cari customer den hw shld i help u kn..??

I have an everyday routine now..

alek kejer my gang mesti dudok pat kedai kopi minum or makan den we headed back home..

I'm lucky to have da tiga abdul..

lau ta...i have to go home alone..

alone...??

tomorrow i have to go back alone luhh sey..

Dan and Shaakir will onli send me sampai safra!!

my bro esok masok shift pagii as he has his soccer training..

bt thanx arh guys.. krg sanggup teman kan aku esok..masok same shift as akuu..

I'm becoming like last time.

& I hate it!

I have to apologise to this ONE person!

To that one and only Mighty..

I thought for a moment that i will be a change person..

i thought i will OBEY you!

I'm so sorry..

I noe its a sin..

"Aku betol2 nak berubah! tapi aku tak tau asal godaaan syaitan terlalu kuat.Aku nak kau kuat kan semangat aku supaya aku berubah dah TAAT kepadaMU."-tina

I wanna everybody to pray for me..

I don't want to only ask for HIS help wen i'm in need..

i wanna ask HIM for help all the time..

I'm like a hypocrite..

I'm thinking of hym just becos i'm having problem..

oh!!

how jahat can i be???

i'm so disappointed with myself!!!!!!!

niz~~~

gosh!

i'm still thinking of him..

i get this phrase but i'm not sure from where,

"Don follow your heart.it has no brain. Follow your mind.ithas a brain so you can think and make your decision."

To be frank,

my heart is saying,"i want you! i want you!"

my mind is saying,"his heart belongs to someone else. you are wasting your time on him."

argh!!!

Thinking of the good times with hm kept me smiling.

**bonne nuit**

trying to figure out this life.❤11:35 PM

Sunday, November 11, 2007

salut tout le monde!

Topic for today

1)Work

2)Family

3)Old-school boy

Friday was my first day of work. Two words to describe my current job FUN & RELAXING.

As a starting,i think i did a great job.. i get 6 customer seyy.. bt there's a few obstacle that we have to go through.. Sometimes the people that we called scold us..lyke WTH.. we are doing charity luhh seyy.. and the best part was that some customer lecture us.. Merapek luhh seyyy..!

After work i went back to my Grandmother's house.

This is when the BAD news came about.My uncle was transfer to General Hospital..Ksian seyy paklong.. The doctor said that my uncle has more white cell.. Rite now the doctor don't know exactly the sickness but we just wait for all the test and result. The ksian part is that his daughters could not visit him as they have no passport. Only Maklong and adam came to Singapore. It has been a long time since i have ALL my cousins gather. 5 of my cousins pat MALYSIA,3 of them are WORKING,1 who put FRIENDS as his priority,3 who is still in their LALALALA world.. maybe wat people say is true.. My family is very small.. but for me they are everything..i appreciate everyone..!

To my father's family:

i'm not being bias.. but we are like so different.my life is average and moderate..i dun care being the clever or stupid..i dun care if i'm rich or poor..i dun care if i'm ugly or beautiful..i dun intefere or care about u guys.. so FREAK OFF!! if ur talking bout standard..??

3 words.I DON'T CARE.

i'm happy with the people around me and i don't need people like you to pollute my area.

To my mummy's family:

Nenek&Atuk: You're the sweetest and best gift that God has given me. I want you to be by my side every moment. I always asked myself, "What will my life be without them?"

They have been there when i'm in need.

In need of love,care,shoulder to cry and......MONEY.

My Mummy:

I know it has been a long time since i say this, " i love you more than whoever.i love you more than dad,more than bf,more than bestfriends."

I believe i will change but we just wait for the perfect time.

How rude i can be to you rite?

We always argue but we will be back as per normal later.

Aunts&Uncles:

You are the ones that i trust.The one that i can rely on.You care alort for me.You always want me to be the BEST and prove them WRONG. You'll support me all the way in everything.

"Thanks for being there for me.You're my Honeybunch-ies"

Cousins:

You're the best luhh seyy. I love you so much!

We share Stupid riddles!

We share Lame Jokes!

We share Millions of love!

We share foods!

We share drinks!

BUT..

we DON'T share bf&gf..

big NO!NO!

Cousins,"Can we be like last time? Can we have a memorable gathering where everyone is present? Please say a YES!"

bt i don't tink now is the perfect time.

Old-School Boy..

*dreaming*

boohooohooo!!

why seyy..??

why..??!!!!

Stupid of me .

i knew the outcome rite form the start bt..

i still take the RISK..

but its okayy that PROVE me one ting which is 'm STRONG

Ryte FARAH??

ahahahahaha..

Babes: Thanks for giving me all the support. The advice.The motivation.

aku sayang krgs!!

old-school boy,i like you seyy!!

How??

SOS!!!

make it fast..!!!

**Bonne nuit**

trying to figure out this life.❤7:24 PM

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Salut tout le monde!

i just came back from work!

I mean we help distribute flyers from DOOR-TO-DOOR..[its our temp job]

do you know how tired are we??

we have to climb up and down the staircase..

then we have altogether 2500 COPIES seyy..

but we only get $50 PER PERSON..

Thanks to Nasuha,Syafiq,Shakiir&Daniel..

Thanx BABES&&DUDES!!!

It was a tiring experience but FUN!!!

Okayy..Honestly it was my first tyme kejer wif my adeq and frends..

They were SUPER-FUNNY..

You can keep on laughing seyy..

That DANIEL especially..

I can't stop laughing s..

Then that Shakiir kesian seyy asik kena bully..

AHAHAHAHAHAHA..

I LOVE IT!!!

Another funny experience was that DOGGYYY..!!

ARGH!!!!

That was OUR biggest fear sey..

The dog will bark at us!!

BULLSYYITT!!!

Then Nasuha will keep laughing at me if the dog bark at her....

and i will keep on laughing at her too..

The last incident was when Nasuha and i together with one nyonya..

We were happy talking and i didn't realise dat nyonya will be stopping at the 11th floor same as us.. i thought she wanted to drop at the 6th floor..

ahahaha..

Tina:Nas! asl kau trn tingkat 6??

Nas:(question mark face) Kau giler per..?? Nie tingkat 11 seyy..

Tina&Nas:(laugh like mad!!!)

We end werk ard 8.. Then lek2 jap..

After than we went for our DINNER!!!

**yummy!!**
we ate at kopitiam..

Pat situ lagi rabak seyy..

Daniel was a REAL LAME JOKER!!

he made us laugh like mad!!

ahahahahahaha..

andd nasuha pulak alwaes kena kacau together with that shakir..

Nas aku rase kan kau tak lehk jumpe bdk2 kecik.

tak abes2 gdh..cam KUCING&&&ANJING!!!

Then after makan,we went lepak jap pat daerah umah shakiir..

My cousin and i flagged a taxi for nasuha then we went back home..

**Bonne nuit**

**À bientôt**

Tu me manques!!dat old-school boy!! XD

trying to figure out this life.❤11:08 PM

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

i've decided to start blogging again...

i feel that i need a DIARY and i dun feel save writting in on my own diary..

and this blog is gonna my own personal diary..

Okayy!! Holiday homeworks are all BULLSYIT!

"Excuse me Teacher! When is exactly our Holiday?"

LOTS of hwk for us seyy..

Are we some kind ROBOTS?!?!

I haven't started on ANY HOMEWORK!

Hmph.. i'll be working starting dis FRIDAY..

GOSH! dis is my ferst tyme doing a serious job..

Usually i'll take up any job dat is around me.(but usually i will be helping my aunt at her workplace)

i noe i've disppoint someone.. At ferst i was reluctant to find a job.

yeah!! everyones in da family knows how LAZY and BOSSY i am.. bt these was not planned..

Nas,Alisha and i went for an interview at Great Eastern.. but the Person dere said that they will give us the answer on FRIDAY..

I was Starving and we wanted to grab some food but then Nas insisted to find a job and the building was just NEXT to the building..

so we try our luck and we get the job..!! incredible right??

I know i once said that i will not find a job cause i'm still studying.

but where can i get my income dis holiday??

i love going out and when i'm outside my biggest fear is MONEY..

the TEMPTATION of FOOD and some ITEMS attracts me..

WOW!! these are the DEVILS!!!

note to my superpower:

i'm very sorry. i know that i disappoint you.i feell very2 bad.only god knows how bad i feel.Aku sayang kauu tauu.Hati aku half-hearted seyy wanna werk.:(

Hmph.. my HoneyBunch cousin will start work next work..

Can u imagine how lonely i can be..?????

do you know how sa i am????

First it was KakYana who started working den Aidil now its Along..!!!

I'm so damn freaking FRUSTRATED!!

I have no Cousin to GO OUT wif..! [conferm he will be busy with his werk]

I have no cousin to TALK tooo![conferm he will be busy with his werk]

I have no cousin to CRY onn![conferm he wil be busy with his werk]

OEI HONEYBUNCH!! PLEASE STOP WORKING can?

i noe the answer is NO!

boohooohooo!!!!

i'm in love with that old schooolll boyyy!! XD

shhh!!

Nyte! Sweetdream!

trying to figure out this life.❤8:56 PM

FARAH FATIN WAS HERE! :D

yeah!!! ff was her.. Credicts to FF.. she help me out wif my blogskin..

Thanx again..! (:

trying to figure out this life.❤7:47 PM