17042008
I missed a lot in school.
Studies especially and i donno
how in the world am i going to catch up.
With my bloody attitude like this.
Hoping for everything to be infront of me and
miracle could happen.
Im so _____ PRESSURISE by people!!
I dont feel like going for the operation and scope.
Why in the world must i be sick?
and it is totally at the wrong time.
when im having my Os!!
im not complaining.
HE is the one who makes this happened.
i tried to tell myself that this happened because of my PAST and all those SIN.
im sorry if im complaining to much instead of PRAYING for the best!
HAIZ! HAIZ! HAIZ!
im sighing tinking of what to do
and how can i improve and change.
I dont want anyone to feel what im feeling.
I dont want to share my problem to them.
especially my mother.
I dont want her to think that im giving her problem.
She gave me some idea on how to solved them
but like what ive said,
i dont want to give problems to anyone.
im sure people do have a life.
Why waste their time on me ryte?
To my dearest sheaha,
Thanks a lot for the care and concern.
You are always there for me whereas
i have never been there when you really need me.
And the thing that touched my heart
was that you were concern about my health
whereas i, myself, have no time to think of them.
All i do is that thinking that SLEEPING would solved everything.
mayb its the best solution.
BYE!
ps: Jangan mencari die. Semakin kite mencari semakin jauh die akan lari
-kata2 hikmah dari Muhad Nur Aidil-