31012008,Thursday.
i'm not so gonna like this date and day.
heart that bleeds and tears dat rolls down.
A mixture of feelings but what i noe is dat im disappointed.
Disappointed with BESTFRIEDS!
at the moment all i can say is that i hate bestfriends!
y?
i believed that friendship is like relationship.
i dont trust you guys.
simply as that.
actually is not simple.
simple to say but try be in that place.
it hurts.
im not mad at that he likes you.
for what?
aniwae u experience this before between u,N,F..
so you noe hw it feels.
giving up someone is not something easy
but i noe myself.
i noe wat im capable of.
and dont tell me that you love him.
cause lets put some sense.
i cant get over him YET.
so it kills when i hear that.
im tired of not being myself and giving way.
u talk i shut up instead i still can laugh and smile.
so wat if i talk? will u shut up or show me that sickening face?
i dont know how will tomorrow be.
im just tired.
tired of talking.
tired of laughing.
tired of looking at people.
can i like not go to school?
i need time to rest.
To cuzzin dollie,
Thanks for being dere for me.
You were there ryte from da start of this problem.
and i tink u were ryte and should listen to ur advice.
ps.i really have no heart now. i dont care bout u guys are hurt my my action or werds.